For Gemma Eve Pullen

For anything that reminds me of how wonderful you are

You have the most amazing taste in music…

Im sorry i butchered him!

We are amazing together

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Our date, here, on Monday was so easy. We just talked to each other about nothing and everything at the same time, but still never lost any interest in each other. That is the real me, the one who you can laugh and talk to and do anything you want because i’m just so comfortable around you, and you are with me.

The Envelope date

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This date was the moment i realised just how extraordinary you are. For a second date we were just so comfortable in each others presence, there was nothing awkward, it was like we’d known each other for years, and ive felt the same ever since. You are intoxicating, i cant get enough of you.

I’ve planned the second of these dates, and if you can find a reason to let me, i was hoping it would be this Friday/Saturday, i planned on making it even better than the last one.

Today i bought this…

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And tomorrow im going to use them to make these…

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I cant guarantee theyll look as good but im definitely going to try.

Your obsession with Pokemon is just one of the things that enthralls me about you…

The way you get with cute animals…

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I dont think anyone has ever felt the way you do about your dog, or cute animals in general, and i genuinely think it is the cutest thing ever.

The fact that every moment i spend with you is a moment i want to remember

No one has ever made me as happy as you do. No one has ever made me as separately scared and safe all at one time. Scared that i wont be able to keep you happy, but safe knowing that any time spent with you is a blessing, and its something that i dont want to be without. I say it all the time, but you are genuinely amazing.

There’s not one single thing about you i would change, apart from the way you feel about me right now, and thats the reason ive done this. I in no way find this funny, and im not trying to justify anything, im just trying to say: That person last night WAS NOT who i am, and its definitely not who i want to be. I want to be the guy you’re proud to call your boyfriend, and i know that that mistake can never happen again, because its killing me the thought of you not being with me.

Im trying to show you that we can be so much bigger than this argument. I’m so sorry for everything, nothing deserves to make you cry and im utterly ashamed of myself for it, im sick of the thought that i could be so blind. But i know, just like the jealousy (which i have controlled) i can promise that this will, and cannot, ever happen again.

I Hope you find a reason to let me in.